Wanted: one new body for an awesome specimen of the canine species. Availability: ASAP
Why, oh why, do we need to deal with logistics when we can barely handle our grief?
So I just got off the phone with her cancer doctor, and he is firmly convinced that there is nothing left he can do. We can give her some pain meds, but those generally make her doppie. She doesn't express any obvious evidence of pain, and she still wants attention. So it's really not clear that pain meds would improve her life, if she's too doppie to enjoy attention in her last days.
But it's coming, and its coming fast. She lost use of 3 legs and is losing control of her tail over the weekend. I really don't know if she's going to pass away any minute now, or if she'd just become a cuddle blanket if we don't put her down. I suspect the spinal corruption will end it for her one way or the other. Do we wait until the last minute, or do we pick a date and time?
Logistics. Is death good for you today? How about tomorrow? When does death fit into your schedule?
I don't have the words for this.