October 31st, 2012

Your friends are the people who aren't trying to kill you.

A few people have expressed some confusion over my post. They seem to think I am doing a bad job persuading people to my point of view. I am sorry to have confused anyone, but I never intended to persuade anyone to my point of view. I had a very specific message for some people.

I am scared. I am more scared than I have ever been by any presidential election. I feel that my dignity as a person, my lifestyle, and even my life are on the line in this election. Even worse, even if I were to get through this, I feel that tens of thousands of other Americans will get left out, pushed out the airlock by this administration. I don't feel that this is the right thing to do.

I am not trying to persuade anyone. I didn't expect that I would persuade anyone. It wouldn't matter anyway. Everyone I know lives in a state which will vote true to its history.

What I did is something very different. I came to a realization that I was continuing to sit down at the table with people who persistently throw "people like me" under the bus. I realized, as it were, that I am the stupid kid who keeps trying to hang out with a gang. They laugh at me behind my back. They beat me up every time I show up, but here I come again, trying to be part of the gang. This isn't an analogy, I actually spent several years in exactly this role when I was young and living in the projects.

Well I have recreated this scene in adult life. I continue to spend time with people who will vote this year for someone who will disenfranchise me, to make me not a citizen, to take away my rights and dignity, to throw me out the airlock.

I have woken up. These aren't my friends. They never were. I am not trying to persuade them to change their minds. I am telling them to Go Away.
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